One of those weeks, er, I mean days.. and days...

So this week hasn't been the greatest.
How can money be the root of everything?
Who has money for:
rent
food
out to eat food
electric
tv
internet
gas
insurance
vehical payment
school payment
medical bills
fun stuff?
it's so much! does anyone ever get a break who doesn't have a million dollars?
Starting a new job is somewhat stressful . But put on 2 confusing assignments and learning how to do a job and worrying about money is too much. I keep telling myself, 'this is going to pay off' and sometimes I think it won't. Will I make enough when I get out of school? Will I even get a job? Where am I going to live? Can i afford to even live on my own at 20? I want a cat.
Can I care for myself AND a cat? I want new clothes, I've lost 30 pounds in the last 8 months.
I can't even afford a new shirt or a nice pair of pants for my job interview. Money. I wish I had some. I wish I had some and then some. Have a little 'cushion', some security. Instead I'm using my savings to pay for gas and groceries and its going fast. I drive to school. Work. Home. I'm not driving for fun all around town. I'm not going out to eat even. I can't afford it. For the first time in my life, I'm broke. I can't afford much.
"No matter how hard you hug
your money, it never hugs back."
~Quoted in P.S. I Love You, compiled by H. Jackson Brown, Jr.
-Kenz